“…Wow time is so crazy ... in some ways I feel like I just began my apprenticeship...the deeper I go, the bigger the picture gets. All the way to purging the Western Consciousness (well, chunks of it anyway)…”

“…One of the unique aspects of the Medicine, is that it can expedite this process, purging the body of these low frequencies so we can get back to our true selves. As things purge, new levels of clarity and our true spirit is left in its place…”

“…The thing about levels of understanding, is that you can't see past the level you are currently at. You may not even know another level exists…”

“…Reading over that story in hindsight (years after I wrote it) made me laugh out loud at parts. It was so insanely intense at the time - maybe the hardest thing I've ever done. But now, after four years of Medicine and experience, it blows my mind some of the things I believed (especially thinking that the shamans were above getting swept up in gossip!)..”

“…I had a game plan - needing to find out the truth. I was going to go on acting like everything was normal, and when I got there, present an option to Luco which will show me his true feelings. Then I would strategically keep everything cool with us, and adjust accordingly…”

…”It was hard with my mixed feelings...I knew the Medicine had done it's work, but I still wasn't clear on the people administering it. How much does that effect the ceremonies? A shaman who has had thousands of ceremonies must be completely purged, right?”

“…I tried to hold my shit together, but the jealousy was raging internally by then. I had completely checked out of the conversation, looking around uncomfortably, arms crossed, foot tapping like a maniac. I didn't want to leave them out here by themselves, and set the stage for whatever the fuck to happen. But the build was too strong…”

“…Jealousy has been a major problem in my life. It's rooted in deep insecurity, and something I haven't been able to even manage well, much less heal it. It could be a problem here…”

“…For about a month, I was in my intensive language phase, as I didn't even hear English the entire time. Time spent bonding, exploring the village, going out, having ceremony at the Elder's, and basically cleaning up as the early stages of my Ayahuasca apprenticeship got underway…”