“…How much I am willing to get out of my own way to let the release underneath the ego flow, and find the balance between my spirit, my self, and my Life Purpose…”

“…Working with the human ego has been one of the most challenging aspects of my apprenticeship. Some people seem to be so naturally in a harmonic relationship with it. For me, it hasn't been so easy…”

“Okay, so the doubt purge continued at full force. Oldschool again, dark consciousness shit. We did a ceremony on the boat again and I was able to handle purging maybe twice as much as normal, since the water sucks it away immediately. That night was the grand finale for me…”

“…This has been one of the biggest breakthrough sessions I've experienced so far. So much of the three month heart purge at home, plus first session all building and leading up to this. I have a whole new perspective on the concept of longing…”

“…God it feels good to be back in the Medicine, and coming back to my real self after that monster of a purge. Most of the emotional volcano was complete before I left, now we're just sweeping up some energies and allowing the new (true self) belief systems to solidify into place…”

“…So as this cycle comes to completion, it's hard to articulate everything I've learned in the process. A lot of it was simply pent-up emotions that released and purged out, as well as restructuring old belief systems, ego defense mechanisms, and triggers that I had developed in early high school…”

“…With the wound extracted from Paul, I was able to handle getting even farther down the fear hole, hitting areas so vulnerable I hadn't been able to touch them in years, for fear I would collapse into oblivion. But these defense mechanisms are hard to penetrate…”

“…It's amazing how quickly the blindside can slam you. Just when you settle into a nice, comfortable place...BAM! This is the life on an accelerated path…”

“…As challenging as a given ceremony can be, for many, it's not the hardest part. Nasty vomits, emotional rollercoasters, scary hell visions are no match to that which is so familiar - life in the Matrix. Where those things you are purging were born and bred…”