“…How much I am willing to get out of my own way to let the release underneath the ego flow, and find the balance between my spirit, my self, and my Life Purpose…”

“…The fear of love (specifically in romantic form.) And the fear that I wasn't good enough/didn't deserve to have it - hardened into a fully functioning foundational belief system underneath everything (except for my True Spirit)…”

“…That was one of the deepest core consciousness - hitting on fears that I didn't even realized I had down there - kind of purge. Various waves for six months. It took me two years of Inner Visions and three and a half years in the Medicine to be ready to handle that one…”

“…Working with the human ego has been one of the most challenging aspects of my apprenticeship. Some people seem to be so naturally in a harmonic relationship with it. For me, it hasn't been so easy…”

“…Sometimes it's not an obvious trigger. It may be totally irrational, and I may be fully and completely aware that it's a nothing trigger. Yet still, sometimes when the energies are purging, chaotic ape-shit-ness is all I can feel…”

“Okay, so the doubt purge continued at full force. Oldschool again, dark consciousness shit. We did a ceremony on the boat again and I was able to handle purging maybe twice as much as normal, since the water sucks it away immediately. That night was the grand finale for me…”

“…This has been one of the biggest breakthrough sessions I've experienced so far. So much of the three month heart purge at home, plus first session all building and leading up to this. I have a whole new perspective on the concept of longing…”

“…God it feels good to be back in the Medicine, and coming back to my real self after that monster of a purge. Most of the emotional volcano was complete before I left, now we're just sweeping up some energies and allowing the new (true self) belief systems to solidify into place…”

“…So as this cycle comes to completion, it's hard to articulate everything I've learned in the process. A lot of it was simply pent-up emotions that released and purged out, as well as restructuring old belief systems, ego defense mechanisms, and triggers that I had developed in early high school…”